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It's been really hard to concentrate the last couple of days for a couple of reasons...

1. I am sick and get rather loopy when I am sick, I will be doing one thing, and then go to do another before I am finished with the first and then realize that I don't even know what I am doing!

does that make any sense?

me right now
acting like a dork
when I should be reading





2. Sarah. In nine days it will be a year since she died... and it is weird, and extremely hard to think about. Harder then most people can imagine, like if you haven't gone through the death of a friend, it is different then a death in the family, and it is different when you are 18/19. Lately I have been wanting to punch a wall. Weird, I know, but I've just been getting really frustrated thinking about what happened to her, and I keep thinking about hugging her, so I get pissed and yeah... it kind of makes me sick to my stomach too
which is weird
it wasn't really like that much at first
more so now

that probably doesn't make much sense... it does if you have gone through it.

Sarah and I

Ill

I've noticed that if you are going to live in a dorm, have a lot of medicine. Because when one person gets sick it is VERY VERY likely that you will too. But you still have to go to class because you don't have your parents here to feel your head or hear your moans of pain and to tickle your back and tell you to stay in bed.

This is how I feel right now.


So if anyone wants to send me a care package (with candy and money hahahaha)
It would make me feel 1000000 times better and I might even do my homework! yeah!

PO Box 2420
300 W. Hawthorne
Spokane, WA 99251

:D
haha thanks

Thoughts

So I was thinking about today how I never see my old friends and how I hate it. I miss them, you know?

But then I realized...
They are going no where.
They are doing nothing.
They are working (some at least).
Working just to spend their money on 1. rent 2. alcohol 3. food
That is not the life I want to live.
So I am thankful, even if I don't have the best friends I have ever had right now... who I am right now is a person I would much rather be then the one I would be if I continued to follow them.

Even if I'm not meant to be at Whitworth for the education I think I am meant to be here so that I don't continue down that path, although I grew out of that a couple years ago, I think that even the stage I am in right now, if I weren't in school I would slowly become someone I didn't want to be.

Anyway, those were my thoughts last night through this morning so I thought I'd jot them down before class!

Spring Semester!

Well, Spring semester started today, I had Astronomy this morning at 9:30, it was interesting/boring. I really like learning about space and such but it was the first day of class.. so we had to get all the boring syllabus stuff out of the way.

At 2 something I have a biblical litereature class which I am not excited for, I got my theology class covered already but I NEEDED a class, any class to be considered a full time student for this semester and this was literally the only class that was open in the (rather large) time frame I had open, that wasn't intro to teaching Japanese... no thanks.

It's tie-dye Tuesday :)